2010 - the year of ME
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zinnith1. Thank you ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
winter_elf for the card and the pictures of Joe and his very lickable neck!
2. Thank youlavvyan for the ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
sga_santa story That Comfort Thing! It was everything I wanted!
2,5. I wrote Hair Today fortemaris. I'll repost it here in a little while so I can fix a couple of typos that sneaked in under the radar. Tricky little things those typos...
3.
2009 sucked in a lot of ways - health, money, self-esteem, everything just seemed to make a not-so-graceful swan dive towards rock bottom.
2010, on the other hand, will be a better year, because it will be the year when the most important person in my life will be ME.
I will not allow anyone else to dictate my thoughts and emotions. I will not allow anyone else to make me feel bad about myself. I will not allow anyone else to tell me how I'm supposed to live my life. I will not allow anyone to walk all over me and take me for granted. I will not let anyone make me feel bad about my gender, my sexuality, my appearance, my health, my nationality, or the colour of my skin. I will not settle for the second best.
I will be a happier person. I will acknowledge to myself and to others what a very awesome woman I am. I'm good at what I do. I'm strong and smart and funny and competent and I have something to offer the world. I will not make self-deprecative comments or jokes. I will look myself in the mirror every morning and tell myself that I'm beautiful.
I will focus less on what I should do and more on what I want to do. I will write my stories, I will read my books, I will watch my shows and movies, I will do the things that make me happy. I will not be ashamed or apologise for my interests. I will embrace my inner nerd and let her out to play in the real world.
I will let myself laugh out loud when I'm happy. I will let myself cry when I'm down. I will let myself talk even when I don't have anything to say. I will ask for hugs when I need one. I will whine and complain about sucky things and then I'll do something about them if I can, and let them go if I can't.
I deserve good things to happen to me. I deserve to have people in my life who love and care about me. I deserve appreciation for the things I do. I deserve to be allowed to fuck things up now and then without anyone thinking less of me for it.
I will let myself have bad days. I will let myself give up on things without being ashamed. I will let myself spend a weekend on the couch eating chips if I need it. I will let myself be angry and rant about everything that's unfair with the world. I will let myself accept that not everything has to be my problem, that I'm allowed to say 'I don't really care' about things that I don't really care about. I can't fix everything that's wrong with the world, and it's not my responsibility. All I can do is try to make my little part of the world a better place. I will not allow anyone to tell me I'm a bad person for thinking like this.
I will do whatever it takes to feel good about my body. I will wear party make-up and lipstick to work if I feel like it. I will buy clothes that look good on me instead of the cheapest, most boring thing on the rack, because I deserve better than that. I will buy sexy underwear even if no one is going to see them. I will work out because it's fun and makes me feel good, not because people think I should. I will see my body as a part of me, not just a bothersome shell for my intellect. I will treat it well and say nice things to it and be friends with it. I will accept compliments with smiles and agreements.
I will not stick to the second row. I will walk with my head high and my back straight. I will not take any shit from people who think they know better than me. I will be self-confident and I will be proud of myself and my accomplishments.
These two women will be my inspiration this year. Teyla for her inner and outer strength, her serenity and her ability to kick ass. Garcia for her attitude, her individuality, and her sheer awesomeness. I will put these pictures up at my desk at work and if anyone asks why I turn to fictional characters for inspiration, my response will be 'Why not?'
This IS about me.
winter_elf for the card and the pictures of Joe and his very lickable neck! 2. Thank you
lavvyan for the sga_santa story That Comfort Thing! It was everything I wanted!2,5. I wrote Hair Today for
temaris. I'll repost it here in a little while so I can fix a couple of typos that sneaked in under the radar. Tricky little things those typos...3.
2009 sucked in a lot of ways - health, money, self-esteem, everything just seemed to make a not-so-graceful swan dive towards rock bottom.
2010, on the other hand, will be a better year, because it will be the year when the most important person in my life will be ME.
I will not allow anyone else to dictate my thoughts and emotions. I will not allow anyone else to make me feel bad about myself. I will not allow anyone else to tell me how I'm supposed to live my life. I will not allow anyone to walk all over me and take me for granted. I will not let anyone make me feel bad about my gender, my sexuality, my appearance, my health, my nationality, or the colour of my skin. I will not settle for the second best.
I will be a happier person. I will acknowledge to myself and to others what a very awesome woman I am. I'm good at what I do. I'm strong and smart and funny and competent and I have something to offer the world. I will not make self-deprecative comments or jokes. I will look myself in the mirror every morning and tell myself that I'm beautiful.
I will focus less on what I should do and more on what I want to do. I will write my stories, I will read my books, I will watch my shows and movies, I will do the things that make me happy. I will not be ashamed or apologise for my interests. I will embrace my inner nerd and let her out to play in the real world.
I will let myself laugh out loud when I'm happy. I will let myself cry when I'm down. I will let myself talk even when I don't have anything to say. I will ask for hugs when I need one. I will whine and complain about sucky things and then I'll do something about them if I can, and let them go if I can't.
I deserve good things to happen to me. I deserve to have people in my life who love and care about me. I deserve appreciation for the things I do. I deserve to be allowed to fuck things up now and then without anyone thinking less of me for it.
I will let myself have bad days. I will let myself give up on things without being ashamed. I will let myself spend a weekend on the couch eating chips if I need it. I will let myself be angry and rant about everything that's unfair with the world. I will let myself accept that not everything has to be my problem, that I'm allowed to say 'I don't really care' about things that I don't really care about. I can't fix everything that's wrong with the world, and it's not my responsibility. All I can do is try to make my little part of the world a better place. I will not allow anyone to tell me I'm a bad person for thinking like this.
I will do whatever it takes to feel good about my body. I will wear party make-up and lipstick to work if I feel like it. I will buy clothes that look good on me instead of the cheapest, most boring thing on the rack, because I deserve better than that. I will buy sexy underwear even if no one is going to see them. I will work out because it's fun and makes me feel good, not because people think I should. I will see my body as a part of me, not just a bothersome shell for my intellect. I will treat it well and say nice things to it and be friends with it. I will accept compliments with smiles and agreements.
I will not stick to the second row. I will walk with my head high and my back straight. I will not take any shit from people who think they know better than me. I will be self-confident and I will be proud of myself and my accomplishments.
These two women will be my inspiration this year. Teyla for her inner and outer strength, her serenity and her ability to kick ass. Garcia for her attitude, her individuality, and her sheer awesomeness. I will put these pictures up at my desk at work and if anyone asks why I turn to fictional characters for inspiration, my response will be 'Why not?'
This IS about me.
